Here I am at 39 after working since I was 14, with an 18 month old boy now asking myself, should I think about a work from home career. I’ve had the last month off from work and I’ve spent so much time bonding with my son that I almost feel guilty taking that time away from him now. I still don’t know the healthy balance and everyday I am trying to figure it out.
As I continue to look for the next step in my career I find myself learning more about what a Stay at Home mom entails and I can step back and say I miss work, but not more than I love my son. I have an awesome partner in crime, Greg and he is starting his career in Social Work while working towards his promotion in the Texas Army National Guard and lets face it as most Americans do, we also need 2 incomes.
As a Career Mom I absolutely had some great luxuries I have had to give up during this time. Cleaning lady, food delivery, full-time daycare, weekly mani/pedi, and last-minute shopping excursions (sounds better than spree’s). I also had a purposeful driven day, filled with a great feeling of accomplishment, stimulating conversation and personal development. I was blessed to have a great income and friends where I worked so it didn’t feel as like as much of a job but a career. The choice to move on was not easy but as I noticed my own difficulties at work I felt it overflowing into our home.
As a Stay at home mom, I cook, clean, care for our son, still search for my next career, and maintain the household. I will say, this is easily a 12 hour day. I am fortunate that a few of the weeks I have been able to leverage some daycare to allow for a little more flexibility. Those days are coming to an end and it’s just me and my little man. I love the time. We play throughout the day, go for walks, head to Gymboree, have play dates and continue to build our routine. He has transitioned from sleeping at 7:30 to 9pm so he has more time with dad and sleeps in until about 7:30-8:00 am.
So what are my next steps? What is my middle ground, how do I keep the enjoyment, love and household passion I have formed alive while I figure things out. We are all worried financially and I still miss having the daily sense of accomplishment and the income to support that success. The drive and passion I have carried through my career, will it diminish?
Three things I know for certain; I love my family; I know I am successful; I know I can find a happy balance. Stay tuned…………